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Monday, December 15, 2025

⚠️ CONTENT WARNINGS
This book contains adult themes intended for mature readers only (18+), including:
Dark romance dynamics
Consensual but extreme BDSM themes
Power imbalance and psychological manipulation
Emotional dependency and coercion
Physical punishment and bodily endurance
Non-traditional relationship structures
Chapter 1

God! I never dared to dream that this kind of life would happen to me! God! Help me! This kind of heaven is too much, I must pray ten thousand lifetimes before to be granted this in this lifetime!
I lay flat on the cold, unforgiving marble. I was completely still, a statue of flesh and fear. My arms and legs were utterly trapped.
My wrists and ankles were locked in thick, heavy leather cuffs. 
Beneath the table, cold, unyielding steel bolts secured them. The restraints were solid, binding me absolutely. 
They would not yield an inch. The constant, crushing weight pressed deeply into my skin. 
It was an aching, exquisite pleasure—a constant, undeniable reminder: I belonged to them.
My neck was held rigid and immobile. A heavily padded leather frame cradled it, supporting my head. 
A tight collar and harness held my body unnaturally upright and completely exposed. 
The air in the cavernous room was chilly on my bare skin, raising goosebumps. 
Every inch of my body, from my throat to my feet, was vulnerable, laid bare for their inspection. 
The massive crystal chandelier light flickered unevenly above, casting dancing, fragmented shadows over my body.
The table, the centerpiece of their ritual, was me. 
My body’s contours, my soft flesh, were the base for their opulent feast. 
Platters of food, arranged with careful, artistic precision, were balanced across my stomach, thighs, and chest. 
Delicate figs and ruby-red pomegranate seeds glistened moistly against my skin. 
Soft, pale cheeses rested directly on my flesh, slowly cooling against my core temperature. 
Each plate, each morsel, was meticulously placed and desperately precarious. 
One wrong move, one tremor of my trapped limbs, would ruin the entire display.
My mouth was forced wide, painfully stretched. A clear, thick silicone ring gag held my lips taut and parted, leaving my tongue exposed. 
Soft, honey wine-soaked brioche was pressed against my tongue, filling the hollow of my mouth. 
I was forbidden the relief of chewing. I had to savor, passively, the sticky, decadent sweetness as it slowly melted. 
Every involuntary swallow was a struggle, a deliberate, silent exercise in submission and control.
Beneath me, pressed deep inside, a sleek silicone plug vibrated softly. Its remote-controlled pulsing was a deep, internal thrum. 
The low setting was steady, consistent, and never overwhelming. 
But it was constant enough, a deep, persistent ache that reminded me I had surrendered everything, even my internal peace, to their command.
*
They were finally here, their presence filling the space with unspoken power. 
Daemon, my fiancé, sat effortlessly at the head of the marble table. His posture was relaxed, yet his eyes were sharp, dark, and intensely possessive. 
His bespoke suit and polished, expensive shoes screamed wealth and absolute power. His look down at me was private, intimate, and profoundly owning.
Declan and Aeron sat on either side of the table, flanking him. Their combined presence was commanding and absolute. 
Their voices were low, a confident murmur, full of quiet, contained amusement at my predicament.
They ate with calm, assured movements. They used silver forks to slice thin pieces of meat and sipped expensive wine from crystal glasses. 
I lay completely helpless beneath them, a part of the serving platter. 
The silence in the room was broken only by the delicate, rhythmic clinking of their silverware against the ceramic plates. 
Their conversation was casual, discussing mergers, corporate contracts, and high-stakes financial deals. 
Their high-stakes world felt impossibly far away, yet I was the vulnerable, shivering submission beneath it.
 
I had, with open eyes and a willing heart, agreed to this ritual.
Hours before, in a different part of the room, I had knelt before them. My hands were shaking, not entirely from fear, but from a profound anticipation. 
I had whispered the sacred words they required of me, the final, binding phrase: "I give myself to you. All of me. Body, mind, and soul. Tonight, I belong to the ritual."
That single, whispered vow had started everything. It was the key that unlocked this beautiful, terrible devotion.
Now, I lay motionless, bound by that very promise. My entire being was a vessel for their power, a canvas for their pleasure. 
The mix of intense, confusing shame, burning desire, and absolute, unwavering devotion was a consuming fire inside me.
The room felt charged, electric with barely contained tension. I was their canvas. Their centerpiece. Their feast. Their offering. 
And with every fiber of my being, I craved to be consumed.
 
Chapter 2

Declan's hand moved suddenly. It was a slow, deliberate, and precise movement. 
He reached for a small silver tray that had been placed carefully on the marble beside his wine glass. 
The tray held tools designed purely for sensation play. He selected a slender chrome rod. 
The metal gleamed coldly under the chandelier's flickering light.
He dipped the rod into a crystal bowl sitting adjacent to the tray. 
The bowl was full of melting ice cubes and clear water. He waited, letting the excess cold water drip deliberately off the end of the metal rod and onto the marble.
My breath caught sharply in my throat. Every muscle in my body instinctively tensed. I waited for the inevitable, icy contact.
The rod finally touched my inner thigh. The sensation was an immediate, stunning bolt of icy fire. 
Every nerve ending in the area screamed out a protest. My thigh muscles involuntarily clenched hard without my command. 
My legs twitched desperately against the thick, restrictive leather restraints. 
I was utterly unable to escape the invading, shocking cold.
Goosebumps instantly erupted across my skin, tiny explosions rippling outward from the point of contact. 
A deep, unstoppable tremor of helplessness started in my core.
They watched me. All three of them. Their eyes were unblinking, analytical, and full of proprietary interest.
Aeron's smirk was a faint, yet cutting curve of his lips. "She moved," he observed calmly. His tone was casual, yet undeniably mocking.
Declan merely shrugged, his eyes glinting with detached amusement. "Hardly. She is learning control, but the instinct is still there."
Their voices were calm. They were clinical, conversational. Their casual cruelty intensified the depth of my submission.
I swallowed hard, a painful effort. The sweet, soggy brioche was melting further in my mouth. Its sticky warmth clashed violently with the frost being left on my skin.
I wanted to scream. To beg for release. To plead for mercy. But the solid silicone gag held me silent, trapping the noise inside my throat.
Inside, my mind was a vortex of chaos—a frantic swirl of profound fear and intense, dark desire. 
The cold, intrusive rod was a sharp reminder: I was completely helpless. 
My body's involuntary, desperate reactions were merely their display.
Declan withdrew the rod, but did so agonizingly slowly. The ice water dripped in a thin, cold stream down my leg. It was a slow, cruel, deliberate trail.
Aeron leaned closer to Daemon. His voice was low and businesslike. "The market is unstable. We need her to hold steady. No cracks in the structure."
Their talk was always of business, of high finance. It was the detached, clinical backdrop to my sensual torment.
 It confirmed that this entire event was a serious, non-negotiable ritual. It was absolute ownership, expressed through sensation.
I trembled beneath them, yet I paradoxically embraced the frozen fire. 
The line between pain and pleasure was completely, hopelessly entwined.
 
Daemon did not look at me. He was focused on his wine glass. He casually tapped a button on his sophisticated phone.
“Nghhh!”
A sudden, jarring surge of power hit deep inside my core. My breath instantly caught in my throat. The vaginal plug pulsed sharply, repeatedly. 
It felt violently aggressive, like tiny, rapid knives flickering erratically beneath my skin.
I choked violently on the honeyed bread. Muffled, desperate sounds were instantly trapped and distorted by the silicone gag. 
My eyes welled up with involuntary tears, instantly blurring the chandelier lights above. 
My whole body began to tremble hard, a full-body shudder against the unyielding leather restraints.
Daemon calmly swirled his wine glass, watching the red liquid cling to the sides. His voice was completely calm. It sounded almost bored.
"The Paris merger finalizes after Q3," Daemon stated flatly. "That one was a headache from the start."
Declan nodded in agreement. "The CEO almost walked out on the deal entirely."
Aeron smirked dismissively. "Typical. We always get the messy ones who resist the inevitable."
My stomach muscles tightened further, desperately trying to contain the internal shock. 
The intense vibration rhythm suddenly changed again. It sped up aggressively, then suddenly slowed to an agonizing crawl. 
It was completely unpredictable, cruelly designed to deny me any chance of adapting. 
I bit down hard on the soft bread, tearing the delicate tissue inside my mouth, struggling with absolute silence.
Daemon finally looked up, his eyes lifting to meet my terrified gaze. 
His eyes darkened with cold, proprietary satisfaction at my visible distress.
"You're handling this well," Daemon observed, his voice commendatory yet detached. "No major tremors this time."
I swallowed hard, struggling silently to hold my body perfectly steady against the internal assault. 
Declan leaned forward, observing my clamped lips. "She’s tougher than last time," he commented, as if discussing a physical specimen.
Aeron grinned, a flash of white teeth. "Or maybe she's just learning exactly what we expect from her now."
The intense vibration hit another sudden, sharp spike. My hips twitched involuntarily against the marble surface, a small, pathetic jerking motion. 
A sharp, audible gasp was caught and muffled by the restrictive silicone.
"Good girl," Daemon mouthed, silently shaping the words. His voice, though silent, felt soft but absolutely firm in my head.

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Chapter 10

Three months.

Three months of wondering if Aren was rotting in some unmarked grave. Three months of Kei was filing missing person reports that went nowhere. Three months of Kei was checking his empty desk every morning, hoping.

And then he just walked back into the office like he'd been on vacation.

Zea watched her workmate settle at his usual desk. Same crooked smile. Same habit of tapping his pen against his coffee mug—tap tap tap, rhythm never changing. But something fundamental had shifted. 

His eyes held shadows that hadn't been there before. Deep, ancient shadows that seemed to swallow light rather than reflect it.

"We thought you were dead," she whispered during their lunch break. Her voice cracked with equal parts relief and accusation.

The break room felt too empty. Too quiet. The hum of the refrigerator amplified the tremor in her words.

Aren laughed.

The sound was hollow. It echoed strangely in the sterile space, bouncing off walls at wrong angles.

"The scientist who recruited me was obsessed with early human civilization stories." He stirred his coffee with deliberate slowness. 

The spoon made hypnotic circles that seemed to follow no natural rhythm—counterclockwise, then clockwise, then stopping mid-rotation. "Completely mad about them. I got curious. Applied to his institute just to investigate these tentacle specimens that supposedly came from ancient plants."

Zea leaned forward. Her forensic instincts prickled like static electricity on skin.

As a forensic botanist, she analyzed plant evidence from crime scenes. Pollen grains that could place a suspect at a murder site. Root fragments that revealed where bodies were buried. Botanical toxins that killed without leaving obvious traces. Her expertise in plant forensics made her invaluable to law enforcement.

It also made her understand how botanical mysteries could consume someone.

But three months without contact wasn't normal curiosity.

It was obsession.

Or something worse.

"Ancient plants?" The words tasted like copper in her mouth. Metallic and wrong.

"Prehistoric specimens. Pre-human." Aren's fingers drummed against the table in an irregular pattern that made her skin crawl. Too many beats. Wrong intervals. As if played by something with more than five fingers. "After I satisfied my curiosity, I decided to return to the city. Turned out the research was a dead end anyway."

His smile never reached his eyes.

And when he thought no one was looking, Zea caught him staring at his hands as if they belonged to someone else. 

Flexing his fingers with a mixture of fascination and disgust. Like a pianist forced to play an inferior instrument.

Something about his story felt rehearsed. Hollow. Like a script he'd memorized but didn't quite believe himself. 

The cadence was wrong. The pauses too calculated. The details too vague for someone who'd supposedly spent three months consumed by research. But Zea pushed her suspicions aside.

Relief flooded through her—warm and overwhelming. Aren was alive. Kei was allright. That was all that mattered, wasn't it?

She could investigate the inconsistencies later. Could ask more probing questions when he'd had time to readjust.

For now, she just wanted her colleague and Kei back. Her friends.

"I'm just glad you're back," she said, squeezing his shoulder.

The muscle beneath felt oddly cold through his shirt. But she attributed it to the office air conditioning.

"The lab hasn't been the same without you."


They returned to work. Threw themselves into their latest case with the familiar rhythm of professional collaboration.

The victim was a young man. Handsome maybe. But the violence done to him was horrific.

Sexual assault. Brutal inhuman torture.

His face was completely destroyed. Unrecognizable pulp where features should have been. Reduced to raw meat and shattered bone that made even seasoned investigators flinch.

Zea spread the crime scene photos across her desk. She studied the botanical evidence with meticulous attention.

"Pollen samples suggest he was killed near the old industrial district. The plant matter embedded in his clothing indicates—"

She leaned closer. Examined a particularly interesting specimen with her magnifying glass.

"—wait, this is unusual. There are spores here that shouldn't exist in this climate zone. They're subtropical species, but we're in a temperate region—"

"No. It's him!"

Aren's voice cut through her analysis. Sharp and strange. Pitched higher than his normal register.

She looked up, startled.

Aren stood frozen beside the examination table. Staring down at the corpse with an expression she couldn't read. Something between recognition and rage. Grief and satisfaction. His face had gone completely white. Bloodless. Making his eyes look too dark by contrast.

"Aren? What is it?"

"I... nothing. Just..." He swallowed hard. His hands trembled as they gripped the table's edge with enough force to make his knuckles turn bone-white. "The brutality of it. Still gets to me sometimes."

Something cold crawled up Zea's spine. Serpentine and insidious.


Chapter 11

In all their years working together, she'd never seen Aren react like this to a body. He was usually clinical. Detached. Professional. 

She'd watched him examine decomposed corpses, dismembered remains, victims of the most grotesque violence—all with the same calm, analytical demeanor.

But now he looked like he might either vomit or pass out. His breathing was shallow and irregular. What she couldn't see—what no human could perceive—was the recognition burning behind those stolen eyes.

The god wearing Aren's face stared down at its own mutilated corpse and felt... nothing.

No grief. No horror.

Only mild irritation that this original shell—this beautiful vessel Kei’s loved and adored—came back to him.

At least that mad scientist had been thorough. Demolishing the head before dumping the body. No one needed to know the real Aren lay on this examination table, reduced to evidence in a manila folder.

It had been so beautiful once, this body. Perfect bone structure. Expressive eyes. A smile that could charm information from the most reluctant witnesses.

Nam'Vareth reminisced about Aren's original features the way a thief might remember a particularly fine coat they'd stolen—with appreciation but no real attachment.


“But still it was mildly inconvenient that the scientist had only just now decided to dump the remains, but the body was still perfectly preserved from its three-month rest." he silently thought.

"I'll take over this case," it said, forcing Aren's voice to sound steady. Professional. "You should go. Your boyfriend's here."

Zea followed his gaze to the doorway.

Her breath caught.


Lucien leaned against the doorframe with casual elegance. One hand braced against the wood. Shirt hanging open to reveal that lean, muscled torso—the perfect build for a submissive. Every dominant's dream.

His dark hair was disheveled in that carelessly elegant way that looked artless but probably took effort. Shirt wrinkled and half-unbuttoned as if he'd dressed in a hurry. Or simply didn't care about appearances.

Intricate tattoos flowed like dark water from his left shoulder down his arm. Ending in delicate patterns across his fingers that looked almost like ancient script.

Zea had heard rumors of his family’s deep, occult ties, whispering that the tattoos were maps to knowledge older than civilization. She never took the rumors seriously.

A flash of memory hit her—

Lucien bound and breathless beneath her. Lost in subspace. Those gorgeous sounds he made when she pushed him to his limits. The way his body would arch like a bow drawn taut...

"Zea."

Aren's voice snapped her back to reality. Sharp as a slap.

He was watching her with an odd expression. Head tilted at an angle that seemed just slightly wrong. Too far. Held too still. Like a predator calculating the best angle of attack.

"Go enjoy your date."

"He's not my boyfriend," she said automatically.

But her voice sounded distant even to her own ears. Dreamlike.

Lucien's lips curved into that maddeningly confident smirk. Dark eyes tracking the flush creeping up her neck with obvious appreciation.

"Maestra. Ready to go?"

"I'm working," she replied.

But even as she said it, she was already reaching for her jacket. Her body betraying her mind's protests with every unconscious movement toward him.

"The case can wait," Aren insisted. Moving to block her view of the body with deliberate precision. Positioning himself between her and the examination table like a barrier. "I've got this covered. Really. You've been working double shifts all week—take a break."

There was something urgent in his tone. Almost desperate.

As if he needed her gone. Needed her away from this particular body for reasons he couldn't articulate.

Then Aren's voice dropped to a husky whisper that made her skin crawl with its unfamiliar cadence:

"If he's not your boyfriend... may I claim and devour him?"

The words hung in the air like smoke.

Strange and wrong.

Lucien's laughter was rich and dark. A sound that spoke of understanding—understanding of things most humans couldn't comprehend.

"Hungry already, ancient one?"

Zea stared between them. Alarm bells shrieking in her mind like a security system gone haywire.

Since when was Aren into men?

In all the years they'd worked together, he'd exclusively dated women. Had waxed poetic about his various girlfriends with genuine affection. And what the hell did he mean by 'devour him'?

The phrasing was wrong. Too literal. Too strange. Like someone who'd learned human speech from outdated texts and hadn't quite mastered the colloquialisms.

And Lucien's response—"ancient one"?

What kind of joke was that?

Or was it a joke at all?

The thing wearing Aren's face laughed. But the sound was wrong. Too melodic. Too layered with harmonics that human vocal cords couldn't possibly produce. Like a choir singing in inhuman registers.

"Just joking," it said quickly. Forcing the laugh to sound more normal. More human. "You know how crime scenes affect me. Makes me say weird things. Dark humor and all that. I can smell he is yours."

Smell?