TW: 21++, SA
Chapter 19
Ruby was small when she approached her mother that night. Fourteen years had carved themselves into brittle bones that seemed too fragile to hold the weight of what she carried.
The hallway stretched before her like a tunnel with no end, each step toward the living room a battle against the instinct to turn and run.
She shook—not from cold, though the house was always cold, but from something worse. Something that lived under her skin now, coiled and waiting. Her voice, when it finally came, emerged thin and fractured. Barely there.
"Mom, he—he came into my room again."
The words hung in the air between them. Ruby watched her mother's profile, silhouetted against the flickering blue light of the television. Waited for her to turn. Waited for her to stand. Waited for arms to reach out and pull her close and say the words every child needs to hear:
I believe you. I'll protect you. This isn't your fault.
The mother didn't move. Didn't even turn her head. Just stared at the screen with eyes like dirty ice—clouded and impenetrable.
"It's your fault."
Each word dropped heavy. Cold. Final. Like stones thrown into a well too deep to hear them hit bottom.
Ruby's breath caught somewhere in her throat, sharp and painful. Her fingers twisted together until the knuckles went white, nails digging crescents into her palms. The pain was something concrete. Something real to hold onto.
"Your attitude is wrong," the mother continued, her voice staying flat. Clinical. As if she were reading from a diagnosis she'd made long ago. "Your clothes are too tight. The way you stand—it's too open. Too inviting."
She turned then, finally, and her eyes swept over Ruby's body with something that looked like assessment. Clinical and cold. She gestured vaguely at Ruby's figure. At her youth. At her face. At everything Ruby had no control over.
"You're pretty, and young. That's the problem." The words came out bitter, twisted. "You made him do it."
Ruby felt something crack inside her chest. Not loud. Not dramatic. Just a quiet snap, like ice breaking under weight. Like the sound a bone makes when it finally gives up.
The mother's eyes lingered on Ruby's black hair, thick and glossy in the lamplight. On her smooth skin, unmarked by time. On her face, which still held the softness of childhood even as it was being carved into something harder. Her lips pressed into a hard line, bloodless but thick.
The look wasn't just blame. It was hunger. Bitter, twisted hunger dressed up as righteousness. She hated Ruby's youth with a ferociousness that made the air feel dangerous.
Hated that Ruby was fifteen and she was forty-three, with lines deepening around her mouth and eyes that had grown dull.
Hated that men looked at Ruby now instead of her. Hated that she could see her own obsolescence reflected in her daughter's face. The jealousy wore a mask of morality, but it was transparent. Ruby could see through it, even at fourteen, even with her world crumbling.
Ruby stood frozen, her voice dying in her throat. All the words she'd rehearsed—the pleas, the explanations, the desperate bargaining—evaporated like water on hot stone.
"Get out of my sight," the mother said, turning back to the television. The dismissal was absolute.
Ruby left. The gravity itself had intensified. She walked back to her room on legs that didn't feel like her own. Locked the door with shaking hands, knowing the lock was meaningless. It had never stopped him before.
She sat on the floor with her back pressed against the door, knees pulled to her chest. Her hands shook. Her whole body shook with tremors that came from somewhere deep and wouldn't stop.
She wrapped her arms around herself and pressed her face against her knees, trying to make herself smaller. Small enough to disappear. Small enough to not exist.
Outside, she heard her mother turn the TV volume higher. Drowning everything out. Drowning Ruby out. The canned laughter from a sitcom echoed through the thin walls, grotesque and inappropriate.
Ruby sat there until the shaking subsided to trembling, and the trembling subsided to numbness.
She learned to live in that numbness. It was safer than feeling.
Ruby learned the truth in pieces over the following year. Fragments overheard and slowly assembled into a picture so ugly she could barely look at it directly.
Overheard phone calls, her mother's voice low and venomous. Hushed arguments late at night that ended with her mother's triumphant laugh.
Envelopes that arrived every month, fat with cash that her mother counted with careful, greedy fingers.
Her mother made calls. Always to men. Always married. Always rich. Ruby heard the pattern emerge from behind closed doors.
"I'll tell your wife about the love child," her mother would say, voice smooth as poison. "I'll ruin you. Your career. Your marriage. Everything."
And the money came. Every time. Neat stacks of bills that paid for the house, the food, the television that drowned out everything else.
Ruby didn't have one father. She had a rotating list of frightened men who paid to keep secrets buried. Men who'd had affairs with her mother years ago, maybe decades ago. Men who wanted nothing to do with the aftermath.
She was the secret. The leverage. The transaction. The proof of their indiscretion, monetized and weaponized.
Nobody wanted to claim her. Nobody wanted to save her. She was alone in a way that had no bottom, falling through darkness with nothing to catch her.
Chapter 20
At fifteen, Ruby tried to ask for help. Tried to believe that someone, somewhere, would care.
She went to a neighbour first. Mrs. Patterson, who had a kind face and tended roses in her front yard. Ruby waited until she saw her outside, then approached with her sleeves pushed up deliberately. Showed the bruises on her arms. Purple-black fingerprints. Fresh enough that they still hurt to touch.
The woman looked at her. Really looked. And for a moment, Ruby thought she saw recognition there. Understanding. Help.
Then the woman looked away.
"You're that woman's daughter, aren't you?" Her voice had changed, grown careful and distant.
Ruby nodded, hope dying in her chest.
The woman's face closed like a door slamming. "I can't get involved. I'm sorry." But she didn't sound sorry. She sounded relieved to have an excuse.
Ruby tried a teacher next. Mr. Harris, who taught English and sometimes said encouraging things about her essays. She stayed after class, heart pounding, and tried to explain. But the words came out wrong, tangled and desperate, and she saw his face change as he realized who her mother was.
Then a school counselor. Mrs. Elizabeth, who was supposed to help students in crisis. But every time, the same look appeared. The same withdrawal, like watching someone step backward through a door and close it in her face.
Daughter of a woman like that.
They didn't see a victim. They saw a problem. A bad kid from a bad home. Probably lying. Probably exaggerating. Probably deserved whatever she got. The apple doesn't fall far from the tree, after all.
No hands reached out. Ruby became invisible in a new way—not ignored, but actively avoided. People looked away when she approached. Conversations stopped when she entered a room.
She stopped trying. Learned to carry it alone.
Ruby saved money for a year. Every coin she found. Every crumpled bill from waitressing shifts after school, working at a diner where the cook yelled and the customers left lousy tips. Her feet ached. Her back ached. But she counted every dollar like it was salvation.
At sixteen, she ran.
Straight to her boyfriend. Jake. Twenty-two years old, with an easy smile and smooth words that had made her feel special. Chosen. He said the right things. You deserve better. I'll take care of you. You're safe with me.
She thought he was safety. She thought he was love. She was so desperate for both that she couldn't see the truth.
He was just a different cage.
He knew she had no father to call. No mother who cared. No one looking for her. No one who would come if she screamed. So he did whatever he wanted.
He gave her pills. Powders. Little white tablets that he said would help her relax, help her forget. Things that made the room tilt and her voice disappear and her body feel like it belonged to someone else. Like she was watching everything happen from very far away.
Her body stopped being hers. It became something he used. Something he shared with his friends. Something that existed for other people's pleasure while she floated somewhere above it all, disconnected and drowning.
She'd traded one hell for another. The locks on this door were tighter. The walls were higher. And this time, she'd walked in willingly.
The shame of that nearly killed her.
She ran again. Barely. More like crawled away while he was gone, moving on legs that felt like rubber.
This time to Social Services. The building was gray and institutional, smelling of disinfectant and despair. The woman behind the desk looked tired. Looked at Ruby like she was paperwork. A file number. Another runaway with a sob story.
"Living with an older boyfriend?" The woman's eyebrow lifted, judgmental and cold. "That's illegal, you know."
Ruby wanted to scream. Wanted to reach across the desk and shake her. He hurt me. He drugged me. He sold me. I need help.
"He—he hurt me. He forced me to—" The words stuck in her throat, too big and ugly to say out loud.
"We'll look into it." The woman was already writing notes, not looking at Ruby anymore. Already moving on to the next case.
They did investigate. Eventually. The boyfriend got six months in county jail. A slap on the wrist for destroying a girl's life.
Ruby got sent home.
Back to the small house with its cold walls and colder inhabitants. Back to her mother's glare, harder now, blaming Ruby for the attention, for the questions from social workers. Back to the man who watched her with dangerous, familiar eyes and now had even more reason to rape her.
The terror clamped down on her chest like a fist, squeezing until she couldn't breathe. Panic attacks came nightly.
She stopped sleeping. Stopped eating. Became a ghost in her own home.

